If It Jams -- Force It. If It Breaks -- It Needed Fixing Anyway

I am in serious trouble.
There are times in a man's life
when he makes a most terrible
mistake to someone.

I guess my time has come.
I did something stupid,
and the right reasons of doing so
seems to be invisible
to the naked or clothed eye.
I was careful, and I was wrong.
I had no choice
and I regret ever having no choice.
I got involved,
and I'm a fool to have ever gotten involved.
I am a fool, and I am not proud of it.
I hate what I have done,
but I don't hate myself.

A friend once told me
that not all things good are right,
and not all bad things are wrong.
I'm telling you now,
if only you knew what really happened,
what I did was good, but it wasn't right;
what I did was bad, but it wasn't wrong.
I had no bad intention,
I only came along because I had to.
I couldn't leave her alone out there you know.
She'd go anyway, with or without me.

Persistent and fearless,
a person of great strength.
With a heart of a lion
and the timidness of a squirrel.
Nothing and no one can get in her way.

I tried,
but she's apparently
stronger than me.
I'm a weak,
helpless,
stupid
and disgraceful
creation.
Terrible things have happened to me in my life
but this,
by far
is the hornet among th bees.

I should just let the leaves flow,
and the autumn wind take the guilt away.
I feel awful.
In the state of calamity,
my mind is in the state of calamity.
I'm a terrible, terrible person.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry to have gotten this far.

I have a friend who now lives in Manila. He's part of the Barkada and one of the most intelligent guys among us. I'm not going to put his name here for privacy reasons. Anyway, (magtatagalog nalan ako ha) gusto ko sanag ipagmalaki ang isang to. napaka bright, at napaka bait. First impression ko sa kanya noon was "hilas" or "wala'y ayo" pero mali talaga ako. noon ko pa na realize na mali ako ok... baka isipin nio na ngayon lang kasi tinulungan nia ako...

So eto siya, since the lord didn't give me the gift of knowledge, minsan nagaamit ko naman ang gift nitong kabarkada kong ito. This is one of those instances where I asked for help, and he was there to lend me a hand.

Kibinoy=Me
War_shock6=Him

kibinoy: Bai!!
kibinoy: help...
war_shock6: haha
war_shock6: sige ano man?@_@
kibinoy: kabalo ka kung unsa ng mga social implications ng chuch?
kibinoy: Wala man gud sa net bai...
kibinoy: ang cge rag gawas kay mga social implications ng computer, technology, etc...
war_shock6: hmm teka
war_shock6: what do you mean by social implication?
war_shock6: what exactly?
kibinoy: Ang kanyang effect cguro sa people....
war_shock6: hmm
war_shock6: ganito kasi
war_shock6: diba separate ang church and state?
kibinoy: yup...
war_shock6: the state provides the legislation and ordinances for the people
war_shock6: however, the church serves as a check and balance to the state
war_shock6: sort of like a moral compass
war_shock6: for example
war_shock6: the state would like to pass a legislation legalizing prostitution
war_shock6: of course the church would go against that
war_shock6: and, by influencing the people to go against it, it serves as a check and balance to the state
war_shock6: so that the state doesn't have too much power and doesn't abuse it
war_shock6: and at the same time, the legislations being passed are morally and ethically correct
kibinoy: ahh....
kibinoy: hahah!!!
war_shock6: hahaha
kibinoy: salamat bai.... ur a genius....
kibinoy: So thats basically it?
war_shock6: pero teka
kibinoy: ok...
war_shock6: it's not just the state ha
war_shock6: it also serves as a moral standard for other things
war_shock6: like the church has the power to complain against the entertainment business
war_shock6: when the entertainment business produces films/commercials/shows that, in the church's view, are morally decadent.
war_shock6: the church basically serves as an upholder of moral decadence in society, making sure that industrialization and advancement in technology will not affect the moral character of the country's people
war_shock6: yun
kibinoy: Ah ok...
kibinoy: hahah!!!
kibinoy: Salamat bai...
war_shock6: npnp
kibinoy: Salamat bai.... where would i be if you didn't have YM.... hahah!!!!
war_shock6: lol
war_shock6: hahaha
war_shock6: wala ra 'to oi
kibinoy: Anyway, i have to translate all that into an essay pa...hehhe...
kibinoy: Salamat ulit bai...
war_shock6: sige sige
kibinoy: Tama diay...
war_shock6: gl with your essay
war_shock6: ?
kibinoy: mu balik ba ka sa Kadayawan???
war_shock6:ay dili pa lagi sure
war_shock6: pero ganahan ko
kibinoy: I text ko ha...
kibinoy: Kanang one week befor...
war_shock6: lagi lagi
war_shock6: text2x lang
kibinoy: para maka pananghid na ko daan...
war_shock6: ah sige sige
kibinoy: hehhe....
war_shock6: aytayt
kibinoy: Salamat ulit...


Kita nio? Even if he's a smart ass and a nerd at times, he still has his cool side. Matalino na chuy pa! Oha, asa ka ana? I praise this guy, bow down talaga ako... Salamat ulit bai... hahah!!!

Multiply.... Hmmm... (?)

i'm not really sure with this whole multiply thing...

my whole blogging experience in my entire life was done here. now im in an entirely new world of blogging, music, chatting, connecting, etc. multiply is what they call it. they say that theyre aim is to give the world a better means of communication with people you know, but, hell no!

i'm still kinda not used to the whole thing. there's too much of everything. i don't even know how to add people.

anyway, wish me luck, im gonna need it... hahah!!!